inspiring..

Requests....

Give me a chance
To be your light.
I want to be your light.

Give me a chance.
To be your shelter.
I want to be your shelter.
You need it.

Give me a chance to show you,
We are not all the same,
I am different to them.
I promise

Give me the time.
to show you,
Who i really am.

Give me a place.
a place in your heart.
a place in you dreams.

Give me a chance.
To give you joy.
To show you that peace,
Can be shared with another.

There...

If I closed my eyes
Would you be there?
In this other world.
Would i be able to touch you?
To bring you back?
So you can fill up the
Hearts you left empty.
Mend the hearts that you broke.
So mommy can stop crying.
And everything can be as it was before.

If i closed my eyes
Wolud you appear?
In this awful darkness.
Would you be able to come back?
Along with your bright light.
Then everything would be as it was.
And your laughter.
And sweet gentle voice,
Could fill our home,
Could fill our hearts and ears,
And every other space you left empty.

If i close my eyes, will you be there?

Dreams...

I have dreamt a dream,
Full of dreams.
How i long to live it.
To leave a legacy,
That's my dream.
A dream to change the world.
I dare to dream, a world of dreams,
Bigger then anything dreamt.
I know I'll live to see my dream,
The dreams that i have dreamt.
I dream of how i can change this world
To be in harmony.
I dream that i am influential
And dare people to dream
I dream a dream that's big.
A dream you would call impossible.
But you too will learn
To dream a dream, full of dreams.
When i tell you what i have dreamt.
For sure you to will dream

Inexplicable...

I've lain on my bed before.
Alone, while it rained.
But today its different,
Today I can feel;
That loneliness.

That ever so chilling feeling.
That your world is empty.
That in your world
There is only emptiness satisfying a void.

I've lain my head
On this very pillow.
By myself. While it hailed.
And at this hour nothings different,
At this hour I lie alone.

In a non-existent fantasies
That overplay themselves in my mind.
Thoughts that i believe,
I should live and experience.

Where is the sin in that?
No vanity involved.
No selfishness, no hypocrisy.
Just my happiness.

I have awoken on my bed before.
A thousand times, I have.
The same dreams i have had.
But it's never felt like this.

In Silence's secret

Your heart skipped a beat,
When my name was called.
You slowly approached me
Your heart skipped a beat
As we walked side by side.
I know you felt that heat.
The flustering feeling deep inside.
My voice it got you hypnotised.
Your eyes they've got me mesmerised.
You complete the beat of my footsteps.

Your breathing in sync with my own.
Deep secrets we hold between us,
Secrets I know u want to forget
Put aside our differences,
Put aside regret.
From these feelings we shall not depart.
In me you should learn to trust.
My heart skipped a beat,
When you called my name.
I slowly approached you.
My heart skipped a beat;
As we silently say,
What we had to say.

There we stood....

"Look" you said,
Your eyes guiding mine.
There on the green grounds,
We stood.
The sun above us;
Our spot light.
The occasional stare from a stranger.
But the it was just us.
Nothing mattered just our hearts
There we stood.
Among whispering voices and ideas,
We thought had died long ago.
Fighting Battles, daily.
That we always won, we are strong.
This is what people had marched for.
Men and women had gone to prison for.
So that one day you and I,
Could staand on this green land.
Unafraid, Unshaken; with hope.
And you would tell me to look down,
At our hands holding,
Our fingers intertwined.
My black, your white

It was that day.....

I woke up feeling.. well gloomy today... right now i can't think of any better word to discribe how I feel. I dreamt about a friend that died in front of most us, and i'm not the only one thats been dreaming of her. It had been weird, and the day before I had been talking to her best friends about how everybody seemed to be dying. I didn't see her that day nor did i see her the next day.
About ten minutes before the bell rang for the first class her bestestest of friends rushed through the front gate at school, tried to explain to us wat happened and fainted. We just stood there thinking the Child was overreacting, since well they were known to be just a bit dramatic. A few minutes later another of her friends came through the front gate. her head cast down and tears in her eyes, she said nothing and walked away. There was also a bit of a commotion at the front gate because first of all we weren't even allowed to be there, but about 50 of us wanted to get out and get to her, we just though she had fainted. Her bestest of friends, the beauty, was frantically shaking the gate demanding to be let out, who knew she was that strong.
A whole bunch of teachers ran out to see, the beauty took advantage of this opportunity and so did many others, and maybe thats when it hit us. Maybe she hadn't just fainted.
One other friend came through the front gate. She looked so disturbed her face showed no emotion, u could tell she was really shocked, because she's a hyper one. She stood there looking at me, like she didn't know where to start. you could tell now that she was seriously holding those tears back. " Her, her brain" She hardly whispered. Then she looked up at me "It was evrywhere" she stopped there. She couldn't explain anymore. Then she started crying, and crying, and crying. Till she eventually said.. "Shes dead." later on, I went around getting bits and pieces of how it happened.
Right accross our school there is a MacDonalds. Everymorning She and her best friends would take a bus that would drop 'em right there. they would sut there and wait till there would only be ten minutes left before school started. Its was an everday routine, and them being smokers, they would sit ther doing their thing. But that day they didnt smoke. When they decide that it was time to cross that busy intersection, she decided to stay behind and have a smoke. while all her other friends crossed. she was just five minutes behind them. when they heard a sort of commotion. they all rushed back to see what had happened and saw the most disturbing thing they'd ever seen. She lay still on the road. A bus had just run over her, and she died on the spot.
there was no class that day. We all went home.
tears in all of our eyes.
Fist time i ever really thought about that day in such detail... wow

FIRST

First time i actually did something that i always told myself i should do!! BLOG!! good for me, since i hardly ever do the things i tell myself i should do. This could actually be noted as an achievement.. YEAY me..
hopefully i'll keep doing it..
kissses